Hey. I haven't been on for quite a while and i just wanted to talk about life. My life has been nothing but hectic. I have had track and soccer, girlfriend (which is a bonus), friends, church, my eagle project, scouts, and so much more. I just need a break. I have been talking to my gilfriend lately and i have noticed that i am pushing her away more than pulling her closer. I am getting the idea that I am a crappy boyfriend. Sometimes I feel like she is going to break up with me, because she doesnt want to hang out with me much anymore. I know the reason for that i think but still that is kinda of upsetting. I need help and some advice about what to do. I am trying to be a great boyfriend, but i am failing at it. I keep on telling myself that i will make it better, but i always keep screwing up. It feels like I dont do much right anymore, and i am just wrong. I wish i knew how to flip it, but i dont. I am scared I am going to lose her to a better guy, cause I really care about her and wish i could be with her for a long time. I just wish i could see her more often. Well i guess i screwed that up as well. I should probably just stop trying so hard in life and just quit trying while i am ahead. any comments would be greatly appreciated.